Tigger Year 2010

It's been a while from my previous post, was lazy and with no Internet connection.
I'm offically home for 2 months, and jobless for 3 months!

Was really worried cos been sitting and lazy-ing around, with nothing to do. I became so lazy that I hardly want to move around, and guess what, I gained 3 kgs! OMG!
This CNY, marks the end of 2 years I went travelling.

*Enjoying Starbucks @ Cabot Circus, Bristol

I missed those days I was in UK, how I landed in the no-man-I-knew land. How I found myself a job by the recommendation of Or Tau.

How I then moved on without working and then how I found my all jobs.

I missed friends I made in the UK, mostly Malaysians.

*A day before our departure, farewell party @ Cathay Rendezvous

I missed Nicola, but I hardly chatted with her ;p
I missed Angie. She was a girl whom needs lots of help, she's too weak. But she had overcome her weaknesses as I heard.

* Angie and us, miss her so much

I missed Kin, the weather and the air in Bristol.
This were my ex-colleagues before I left UK, I had worked there for 5 months and I absolutely had no regrets, even with Panda eyes *.*

* Xiao Ou, me, Katy and Louis

How I wished I had the work permit to work as a professional in UK.
But I am happy with my life now.

I know there will be lots of opportunity for me here, I don't have to work like nobody here.
I can choose what I want to work, and in which field.
In this Tiger year, I have new resolutions, which I want to fulfill before the commencement of Rabbit year.
I know I will make it.
I WILL make it come true.Today, we were really knackered, look that's how I looked.

That's all. Gotta go home
P/S: I'm in Starbucks.

surprise !

baby's got me this surprise!

its................

i've been eye-ing on this piece since i saw my boss' daughter's got one.

It's really nice, and it looks a bit like Anya Hindmarch logo.

though its not with large chunk of crystal, i think it looks sophiscated and the best thing is its not really expensive. i don't know how much it would cost in RM, but it's definitely worth the buy here :)

soooooo happy :)

he's a bit unusual when he asked me where's the bag he gave me last Christmas, so i tot he might want to have a look at the phone in it, and when i zipped open the bag i was soooo surprised, cos he was nagging me earlier saying this wasn't pretty. And he got me one!!

so thoughtful of him ^@^

he must had felt i'm being good lately, so he has to appreciate and shower me with love +gift :)

LOVE U SO MUCH BABY

random

i've been thinkin' lately what would i turn out to be now if i were not in UK .
1. I might have been company's top sale, but that will not possibly happen with Dr Ko's around.
2. I might have changed another few more jobs and slacking around.

Yes, i had been such a useless person, i can't define my own future, what should i do, where should i go.

Flying off here is only an excuse i could ever use for slacking and not move a step further.
SInce young, i had never have any dream of becoming something definitive. I couldn't make up my mind and decisions are always made last minute as in things will come straight when it meet the other ends *phew*

after 2 years here, i have yet to find my way. i am still the same old me!! help..
but i learnt a lot of precious lessons here, as in people and environment.
job hopping had given me precious experiences and knowledge i couldn't grab anywhere else.
people here are much more complicated than where i came from, there's so many different nationality, and true to word, there are very different from us.
They came from backgrounds that are unimaginable, they look simply innocent like us, yet they did a lot of research before they speak.
I don't know whether I am lucky or not to see some of them, and to work together. But i am only playing my own part and i hope they will not take me in as a gamble.

*yawn*
its dawn now, 6am..*sleepy*
til then.@.@ muaks..

p/s: I'm so upset

it's been a while

i've been slacking from my blog for the past few months.
there were many things going on, i was too lazy to update and i was also in the job-hopping state, and here i am after all these things. *yay*

i've changed to another chinese restaurant to work, and the work was alright.
i was a bit reluctant at first, but there is no alternative for me, so i carry on and ahha, it turned out to be not so scary as i thought! god bless..
the colleagues were helpful and friendly, but sometimes everyone has their own style of working, so i couldn't really comment on this.
the pay was much better than my previous job so i am more than willing to work the odd hours, which is from 4.30pm-3am (no break in between, mind you).
we 'officially' start the business at 6pm, but if we've got early visitors, we do let them in and enjoy their tea, before 6pm.

anyway work load here is not much different from Takala, but i am much more happier and yes, put on more weight.
omg..i am having insomnia lately =(
i couldn't sleep after 3.30am, and any chance i could sleep i would be jumping around happily, i tried drinking beer, sometimes red wine ( yes it helps) but not all the time :( and also online-ing till dawn, never helps. aiks..i look so horrible now, with big dark eye bags, i look like one of the China most favorite animal :S

oh yes, the sale is all around, i've been shopping til i drop now, i bought like a few hundred pounds now..hehe
shoes, shirts jackets, and som many more, and i was not selfish, i did bought some souvenirs for my niece and nephew! ahha.
but too bad i didn't manage to grab anything for my baby brother..anyway he's working now, so i supposed he can afford his own clothing ;)

erm, what else, oh..i'm going Europe trip this coming September!! can't wait..*0*
i'm going off even my boss is telling me not to, i couldn't not go, i've bought everything! flight ticket, interrail passes and booked some hostels, no way for me to withdraw now!

that's all for now, i'm like a bit crazy after long day work, but still am not sleepy yet! its 5am now!!omg..

invalid daily routine

today is the 7th day!
yay! i've been working in Takala for straight 7 days!
It was really tiring.
I couldn't really adapt working 6 days a week ( its like 7days!) and I felt all my bones and muscles been torn apart. Can't deny I am really old now.
Work had been great, friendly colleagues, helpful and encouraging, might be because I am the only female there, they tend to treat me in a better manner.
the shop wasn't big, just 7 tables, but we've only got 1 and only waitress, which is me, so I have to do everything on my own, and god knows why there is only me!
apart from the wages, its brilliant, and the payment is crap! delay and more delay in paying the wages. I haven't experience it,but i know my day will come.
well, bits of my life then.

I've been isolating myself from the others for the past half years, and I felt I need to get myself into the crowd back.
But from the period, I noticed people I had mingled with did not care if I were to join them.
"If u turn up, oh Hallo!", if not, they will not question about it, but if they happen to look for people to share the gift, u are the 1st in their call list.
People are unpredictable. We can't read their mind, and will no know why are they trying to harm u.
I sometimes can't figure out if its my problem, or it happen to be just a small misunderstanding.
yeah, i am trying to face the truth now. the truth of the story, and i am prepared.
I knew it wasn't my fault, and i understand someone is trying to twist the story. and now she is leaving.
she' gonna leave with guilt that's forever, and i want her to take this with her! it's wat she's worth.
well, sounds like I'm so evil, but u will never imagine she's much more worst!! we can't judge a book by its cover and its true.
Some people is gifted with an angel face but devil's heart, and it only shows up when she's felt threatened, not by me, but by her own esteem.
well..too much to be disclose, anyway its up to them who to get along with, I'm alright and comfortable now :)

been traveling to few cities in 2 days, so exhausted!!
after all the unhappy experiences at work place these 2 months, felt so relieved I was able to squeeze in a hectic city break escape..with Jack Jack of course.

Went to Cardiff, the picture above was taken in Cardiff Bay, and other cities, so tired to mention everything here!!
After all those bad experiences I want to wipe it all off my memories and get on with my new life :)In Bolton Abbey :)
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I started my new job on April Fool's day, I have no idea whether my employer thinks I am trying to fool them or not.
It was a bit difficult cos I have never work in a restaurant as a full time, so I felt so tired and exhausted after 3 hours :(
and worst evening shift was full house!! I was like collapsing at that moment, and my feet are killing me..
I felt I am old now, unable to take more challenges like I used to :(
Anyway I am trying to do my best at this state, hopefully I can get what I want soon :) as in salary and everything.

racist/ discrimination

In modern age nowadays racist and discrimination are still sadly always being involved around.
Racist - a belief or doctrine that inherent differences among the various human races determine cultural or individual achievement, usually involving the idea that one's own race is superior and has the right to rule others.

Discrimination - treatment or consideration of, or making a distinction in favor of or against, a person or thing based on the group, class, or category to which that person or thing belongs rather than on individual merit: racial and religious intolerance and discrimination.

Being a foreigner in a foreign country for more than a year, I faced a lot of both stated above, especially in work related. Having worked in customer service field, as I am proficient in English, I found customers were always nice to me. They were polite, and always understands my difficulty in whatever reason. But I felt my superiors were a bit off the track and I felt they were not fit for the positions they were in. As a superior, model and image for the company, you should be unbias, and calm in handling issues, hence your subordinate will felt your are the right individual that should be at this post.

I always felt not being treated fairly, maybe because I am sensitive or maybe I AM being treated unfairly. Couldn't care more now, I don't felt like want to go to work because of this and it had also demotivated me in my progress in work.

I reckon they think they are one step ahead of me because they are born here, and they speak English better than me, but excuse me, I can speak 3 different languages and I am not as proud as a peacock like them!

Anyway, I am not going to see them anymore longer than this week ( which is already making a year of hell!!) and I think they will not be having too much good days ahead, as I am taking action to complain of being treated unfairly in work, racism and discrimination.

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