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i've been thinkin' lately what would i turn out to be now if i were not in UK .
1. I might have been company's top sale, but that will not possibly happen with Dr Ko's around.
2. I might have changed another few more jobs and slacking around.

Yes, i had been such a useless person, i can't define my own future, what should i do, where should i go.

Flying off here is only an excuse i could ever use for slacking and not move a step further.
SInce young, i had never have any dream of becoming something definitive. I couldn't make up my mind and decisions are always made last minute as in things will come straight when it meet the other ends *phew*

after 2 years here, i have yet to find my way. i am still the same old me!! help..
but i learnt a lot of precious lessons here, as in people and environment.
job hopping had given me precious experiences and knowledge i couldn't grab anywhere else.
people here are much more complicated than where i came from, there's so many different nationality, and true to word, there are very different from us.
They came from backgrounds that are unimaginable, they look simply innocent like us, yet they did a lot of research before they speak.
I don't know whether I am lucky or not to see some of them, and to work together. But i am only playing my own part and i hope they will not take me in as a gamble.

*yawn*
its dawn now, 6am..*sleepy*
til then.@.@ muaks..

p/s: I'm so upset